I slept early last night excited in
anticipation to celebrate your 4th birthday as your Mama, Lola, and
I have the day all planned out for your special day.
Your Grandma Zenny, Tita Regina, Tito Suki,
and your cousin baby Carine started off celebrations by buying you a chocolate
cake and released balloons all for you. Later today in the U.S., Tita Sherry
and Ate Lexi will be doing the same.
We feel the love of everyone as they
remember you, our son.
Yet, I ache because we would’ve loved to
see you blow your birthday candle and see you growing up. I imagine you my baby
and at times seeing you as a toddler at this age. I could hear you speak, see
you growing up handsomely looking like Mama, and most especially a well behaved
baby that you are.
I feel so blessed, because I see you
everyday. I see you in your Mama, sometimes I stare at her telling myself how
much I love her and at the same how you look exactly like her. As much I debate
with your Mama, there’s no denying that you are junior Mama. This makes me very
happy. I get to look at your Mama and see you at the same time everyday.
I can’t help the tears from falling. We
miss you always, and as we celebrate this day every year, I remember it so
vividly as it were yesterday. Your mama and I are the proudest parents and the
day you came to us is and still the happiest day of our lives.
I wish most of the time that I could hold
and play with you just for a moment, even in my dreams. One day I know we will
all be together for eternity. For the time being we will live our lives to the
fullest always keeping you our hearts and minds. The gift that is you and how
you changed our lives… forever.
